Just a quick reminder...

Let's stop taking everything so seriously!!!!!!

Smile, laugh, and see the light in everything! Let's try it!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

Loving you!

Relationships

Relationships are healing lessons. Every relationship we have with someone is a reflection of ourselves in order to heal. Whenever we are angry or upset with another person, we must look within ourselves to find what it is internally that is revealing itself in order to heal. Usually, we are only angry, frustrated, upset, impatient, or whatever the case may be with others when we are feeling the same way with ourselves.

I've recently entered into a new relationship with an amazing partner. It's been exactly one moon cycle and we have spent almost everyday together, intensity and clarity being two major themes. In the beginning of this relationship, I shied away from being my whole self because I didn't want to overstep any boundaries, make my partner upset, or get into any fights. I compromised myself in order to see things run smoothly, or however I felt was smooth at the time. I didn't fully act myself and was cautious with every word I spoke, every sentence I formed, every thought I concluded. Things ran very smoothly, until I asked spirit for a cleanse, a purification. Be careful what you ask for. My request to spirit resulted in receiving lice and having a very strange inflammatory skin problem unmask itself on my face. These past few days have been spent with hot oil treatments, ridding my old habits of toxic facial cleansers, and ultimately forcing myself to look within to see what's been bottling up inside of me and reaching the surface in strange forms. All the while, my new partner and I have been dealing with patience, and seeing each other at our worst. Interestingly enough, what came up for me emotionally was that I had been compromising my true self and biting my tongue for a whole month that ended up resulting in purging of angry words and feeling overwhelmed, crying and upset. Simultaneously, my physical body was dealing with the same purging of huge red bumps all over my face and neck. Lesson learned: always be yourself, no matter who you're with, where you are, or what you are doing. Do not compromise your true self for anyone or anything. My partner loves me no matter what, in the highest and purest form of love possible, there is no need to compromise what I may believe to be wrong in his eyes. I only need to be the angel that god created me to be. Everything else will follow.

What an exciting time! Although my face is full of strange red bumps, and my scalp recovering from blood sucking bugs housing themselves among my hair follicles, I have been able to learn patience, and care, and see that my partner is here to help me learn about me, to reflect to me what I need to learn in my life now, in the present moment. And for this, I am so grateful.

What is your partner/friend/family member/co-worker revealing about you? Appreciate your relationships for being reflections of you. If it's not working out, take a minute to ponder on the idea that it may just be YOU creating problems, not your partner. It may hurt a bit, but in the end, we are all healing and learning and doing this together, in a quantum sense that the divine allows.

Feeling the flow of life on earth, in paradise, with clarity from spirit and revealing my gift to you,

Jen

August 4th, my day of re-birth

We are all one, unified people. We are all connected. Brothers and sisters, please recognize the unity. It is time.

After 24 years of a very fulfilled life, packed with fear, happiness, doubt, joy, love, hate, ego, spirit, heart, confusion, misguidance, fully on purpose, getting off track, getting right back on again, feeling completely frustrated with the world, depressed beyond belief, ecstatic and joyous beyond belief, drugged out, completely sober, laying on train tracks in Portland Oregon, getting crowned Homecoming Princess in High School, drinking 40's on the streets of San Francisco, getting lost in Seminary of downtown Oakland, wandering the streets of Venezuela at night, crossing Colombian borders with illegal US dollars, dancing at clubs underage, playing drums at Hippy Hill, smoking hash in the Himalayan mountains, skateboarding to the local drug store, getting caught stealing underwear from American Eagle stores, experiencing death of my father at the age of 13, watching my family struggle financially, watching my family gain success financially, eating Burger King everyday, eating organic Kale salads everyday, overdosing on processed sugared foods, falling in lust, falling in love, screaming until the tops of my lungs burst, blaming other people for my own problems, taking responsibility for my own problems, looking at the stars and feeling absolutely lost and misguided, looking at the stars and feeling curious, looking at the stars and knowing exactly who I am, smoking too much marijuana, not smoking enough, starting and quitting cigarette smoking, drinking alcohol until puking on the side of streets, having had 21 jobs (and maybe more), memorizing every Mac Dre song in the book, singing Pocahontas lyrics to my grandmother, fighting for social justice in Burma, speaking about Native American rights, giving up my body for the wrong reasons, and the right reasons, jumping in 4 different major oceans, drinking the purest of waters, dancing until in a trance, fearing to dance in front of others, crowd surfing with chains around my neck, bouncing to techno at 5 in the morning at warehouses in Oakland, making Varsity soccer as a freshman in high school, achieving straight A's my entire life, sticking up for as well as backing down for what I believe in, driving drunk, hating my sister, loving my sister, hating myself, loving myself, searching for myself, finding myself, leaving home with a backpack at the age of 22, and not returning until 24, realizing life is not a 9-5 job, making friends, losing friends, breaking hearts, giving too much, not giving enough, being pulled over by Colombian police, getting lost in Costa Rica alone and not knowing Spanish, putting faith into the universe, not having enough money to buy food, sleeping on the street, sleeping in palaces, eating way too much, not eating enough, reading the Quran, reading the Bible, studying yoga sutras, owning over 150 pairs of shoes, donating all those shoes a few years later, winning "best style" in school to not owning any colorful clothes, roadtripping to washington for no reason, hitch hiking across California, Mexico, and Central America, eating the strangest of foods, getting terribly, violently ill from eating those foods, being thankful for life, finding God, finding source, discovering my past lifes, swimming with dolphins, turtles, manta rays, getting stung by jellyfish, getting caught by cops for driving underage, stealing alcohol from the local stores, camping in 113 degree heat, hitting rock bottom and crying for weeks straight, not crying at all for months on end, climbing through golden pagodas of Burma, eating hot noodle soup in Taiwan, visiting the place of my fathers birth, learning about my German ancestry coming to America, hunting, fishing, learning how to play guitar, learning how to surf, modeling in magazines, getting in the car to drive nowhere, wearing $300 dresses, seeing the Dalai Lama speak in his hometown, becoming a manager of a store I knew nothing about, witnessing miracles happen before my eyes, everyday, every minute, every second, and much, much more........

I have one thing to say....After all my life experiences, after these eventful, action packed, fully lived 24 years of my life.....

We are all one. I am a bringer of light into this world, a gem from source, a beam of pure, soulful energy, love, and light, a childlike spirit with a fun, bright, willingness to learn and keep learning, on this mystical, magical, miraculous journey, and so are you. Thank you for being a reflection of me. On my day of re-birthing, I am so happy to share with you this joyous light, this godly light, this essence. We are all one people, one love, one light. No matter where I am in the world, and where you are, we are connected. No matter what phase I am in, and what phase you are in, we are connected. No matter what skill I am learning, or how much money I have, how much you have, what I own, what you own, we are all beings from the same earth mother, from the same creator, equal, and blessed to be sharing this beautiful experience. No matter what religion you and I practice, what cultures we come from, what foods we eat, we can share and learn and grow from one another.

I am so happy to be here on this earth. A light spreader. A vibrant, happy soul! And I am even more happy to be sharing it with you!!! I love you, from the bottom of my heart, the deepest core of my soul, I love you.

A gift for you on my day of birth

This birthday, I would like to do something a little different. Instead of receiving gifts from everyone, and expecting that I will be given material presents, I would like to expand my heart out and give gifts to you all. You, as my friend, as my lover, as my companion, as my soulmate, as my brother, as my sister, as my divine connection, are a reflection of who I am, and for that, I want to give you the gift of love and gratitude on my birthday. I would like you to have this present, as a thank you for being a part of my life, for helping me to grow, and for being there for me even though you may not have realized your presence has helped me in my life so much.

Our birth days are anniversaries to celebrate the time when our spirits entered into the world as a human form, to enjoy this paradise, to experience love. Our birth days have become reasons to go out and party, perhaps get drunk, to receive gifts from others, to eat high-sugared foods, to eat too much. So this year, I have decided to do something differently. I have decided to truly celebrate my day of birth, my anniversary of existence in paradise, my true reason to celebrate, and in doing so, I am giving gifts to all my loved ones as a gratitude for all they have given me. This includes you. My heart reaches out to you and my love pours out and rushes towards you, fulfilling you with warmth, liveliness, and positivity.

My birth day plan:
Practice yoga in the morning.
Sweat to some Zumba.
Cook a simple, raw, vegan meal with my family.
Enjoy the sunshine.
Give out gifts to all my loved ones.

Thank you so much for reading! Thank you for being a part of my life.

Namaste.
Jen