Wednesday, March 31, 2010

San Miguel de Allende. Guanajuato, Mexico


I have been on the move for 5 days straight now. Guadalajara to Zacatecas to Guanajuato to San Miguel de Allende, and today I leave for an eight day stay in La Ciudad de Mexico. I am overjoyed to be going there, the second largest city in the world with over 30 million people, home of Teotitihuacan, Las Pumas, and much more.

A few thoughts about my travels in Mexico thus far...

One of the most beautiful things about traveling is that you give yourself the opportunity to really live simply, off the land, what is available to you at that time. All we really need to survive is food and a place to sleep after all? And survival is life, life is survival. Why make things more complicated with attachments? Attachments to cars, homes, payments, attachments to boyfriends, girlfriends, friends and families, attachments to the emotions that bring us attention, that make us human, that allow us to confide in one another, attachments to over-eating, especially in the United States, as most of us never learned otherwise, attachments to the future, and to the past, forgetting our present moment and union with God (or light, goodness, the great spirit). All of these attachments hold us somewhere, keep us from achieving unity with God. Forgive those attachments, forgive yourself, and keep living. After all, we are spiritual beings having a human experience; all we have is our lives!

What fulfills you? Why are you here on this earth? What makes you happy? Are you here to teach? To learn? To inspire? To love? To grow? To enjoy? To make a difference? To help the unfortunate? To be adventurous? Whatever it is, it is beautiful. Remember the light in yourself. Remember your necessities, and your true essence with the great spirit that divinely connects us all. We are living and playing this game on earth. Let´s have fun and be safe while doing it!

Loving you and always seeing the light in you,

Jen

Monday, March 29, 2010

Essence


What is your essence? We are spiritual beings living in this physical realm. All we have is our life. How do you spend it? I fill my life with patience, beauty, warmth, smiles, friendships, and happiness, always knowing my essence, my goodness, my true soul. We are all here for a purpose, and we are all equal in this game. We must appreciate our lives, and remember our essence to live life fully, to remember the truth, to remember what is natural. I see the light in you, always. Thank you for being a part of my life.

You are light. You are pure. You are beautiful.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

21st Century Nomad: Possible or Not? (A potential book intro!)


As I embarked on my trip to Costa Rica, I didn't know what to expect. The idea of a hostel was so foreign to me; a strange place with beds shared by thousands of travelers every year, a shared dirty kitchen, a language not my own, and people from all over the world. As we entered San Jose Costa Rica, the first person we met was Israeli, a man named Daniel. Because I was not aware of the large population of Israeli's that travel the world after they get out of the army, this was a very exciting arrangement! An Israeli? WOW! What a cool thing! I am really an ignorant American at this point...We shared a taxi to a hostel in the ghetto of Costa Rica but recommended by Lonely Planet. I thought I was so cool with my green youth Northface 55 Terra backpack. I felt so special wearing it because since I was a child, I used to respect anyone with a big backpack going somewhere. I don't know why. Perhaps it was because they were actually going somewhere, other than the known, into the huge deep world, with a backpack and nothing else. I envied them since I was a child traveling with my parents in the big, lonely airports.

I secretly didn't want to go to the hostel. I wanted to walk around with my cool backpack (although not strapped correctly and hurting my back) just to show off to people that I had a backpack; I was going somewhere. Yeah. To the hostel. To eat free pancakes and sleep in an overly used mattress with washed sheets that have been used hundreds of times by who knows who doing who knows what. But I put trust into the world, into the scene, into my new lifestyle, that I had no idea I was going to embrace. After a few days of rain in San Jose, I told Mike and Gary to pick a place, not tell me, and go. So the next morning, we got on a bus and were on our way! Destination: unknown. We ended up in Santa Theresa, on the southwest side of Costa Rica, after 3 bumpy, packed, dirty bus rides and a ferry trip over the peninsula. Santa Theresa: good waves, sunshine, yoga, parties, and hippies selling bracelets on the beach. And luckily for me, some cute Costa Rican locals. Party, party, party, drink, drink, drink, and sleep, sleep, sleep. No time to eat or care about anything else. Only time for beer, futbol (no I do not refer to it as soccer anymore), and some love to be shared. It was there where my eyes were really opened. Israeli's dominating the scene by far, Norwegians, Costa Ricans, Americans, Argentines, Brazilians, French, Spanish, Australians, and more. I was doing it! I was living my dream! I was meeting people from all over the world, sharing the universal language: futbol. Time to leave Santa Theresa, and north to Samara, Nosara, and then to cross the border into Nicaragua. Do you remember your first border crossing? What a pain in the ass! "I bring you here," "Don't take that taxi, take my bus" "Take my taxi!" "No his taxi is much more expensive!" "I need US$5 from you now to cross." And all I'm thinking is "WAIT JUST A FUCKING SECOND!" But in my broken spanish, I am absolutely not assertive enough. After a few hours of border hell, we finally settle on sharing a taxi to San Juan del Sur, one of the most beautiful places I have yet to encounter in my life, not because of the beach or the scenery (although it is fabulous), but because of the Nicaraguan hospitality, the futbol on the beaches at night, and the $1 ice cream right by Casa Oro, the hostel where I met lifelong friends and celebrate my 23rd birthday.

At this point in my travels, I am learning the hostel lifestyle, and opening up my eyes to the culture of travelers that exists in the world; the culture of travelers that move from place to place, the bracelet makers who travel Central and South America living in abandoned lofts and hammocks on the beach, the tourists who stay in hostels for a month or two at a time on their university break, the Peace Corps volunteers taking a weekend trip from their duties at their specific sites, the expats who have found what they are looking for in their lives in that specific place, those who had a "round-the-world" plane ticket and decided to further their stay by working in hostels, the writers who travel to learn of different cultures and express their interpretations through words, the fire dancers, the guitarists, the performers, the volunteers devoting their time to underprivileged people of "third-world" (i quote this because I do not necessarily agree with the term) countries, the students who are studying abroad for a semester, and many, many more. Who would have thought their was such a culture? I was stuck in Concord, CA dreaming of a different life than getting up and going to work everyday, going out on a Friday night to get wasted, and then enjoying a weekend with friends before the same cycle started over again. I knew there was something better: I had to find it. All we have in this life is life itself, we have to enjoy it. I was not enjoying the 9-5 world. I was stuck. I was bored. I didn't like the routine, the commute, the traffic, the idea of living life with two things that everyone's life focuses on: time and money.

Well guess what I learned on my travels thus far? Probably one of the most important concept of all! Time and money do not exist. Actually, they are human creations. Today, I went to pick up my mom from her job (she is a teacher and I am lucky to be able to share a car with her as I am visiting her and do not own a car but in California and in the suburbs of the Bay Area, you pretty much need a car) and walked into her second grade class where they were learning how to tell time and how to count money. I told her, "Mom I remember in second grade, the two things I hated doing the most was trying to count time and make sense of money." I never got it. I never understood the importance. There was just too many other things much more important! Playing tag, four square, and futbol during recess for instance. Then they wanted to sit me down in that stupid little chair when the bell rang to teach me how to count something by 10's that doesn't even exist in the natural world. Are you serious? I'm a nature girl, not an accountant. Don't train me to become one. I was more interested in learning how to play house, how to share, how to care, how to garden. And don't even start me with the concept of time. Let's just say, if we have to keep changing our clocks because of some weird phenomenon like daylight savings or daylight endings, why waste our time? It's life. The sun rises, stays in the sky, sets and then the moon rises, stays in the sky, sets, and then we're back to the beginning! Simplicity. Humanity fits in well with this. We hustle when the sun is out. We move from place to place. We garden, cultivate, plan, learn, think, grow, create and ultimately, be. We are human beings after all, not human doings. How simple it is when we look at it this way, huh? No money to chase, no time to run away from, just enjoyment of the sunshine, of the wind, of the rain, of the love that is ever present between each and every one of us. Oh how simple our lives could be only if we made them that way.

More to come....

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Freedom


As I was making a credit card payment online today, I noticed the advertisements on the Wells Fargo website to "reduce debt" in order to "set yourself free" from high payments and/or interest. There were pictures of people smiling with their arms open wide, accepting "freedom." What does it mean to set yourself free? Everyone has a different idea of freedom. For some, having meaningful, deep relationships is freedom. For some, it's owning a house where you can freely express your creativity through decorations, your family, cooking, etc. For some, it's not being in financial debt.

For me at this time, freedom is not being attached to worldly things. Freedom exists within myself, knowing that God is within me and that I am free to live the life I want. Freedom is able to express myself fully, speaking my truth all the time, and accepting that I am unique, different, and loved. We are all unique and play an equal role in this physical realm we call life; an equal role that is meant to be shared to help each other and learn from each other. Life is a big laboratory, an experiment, and we are all playing the game together, learning and sharing and teaching constantly.

I see God in you. I see Light in you. I see Good in you. I see Love in you. We are all as free as we want to be. I am so happy to feel free and blessed in this life.

Monday, March 15, 2010

Howard Thurman


A friend of mine shared this quote with me yesterday by Howard Thurman. I am very thankful to have heard it and hope it can inspire you as much as it has inspired me: “Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”

What do you think? For me, I have been feeling trapped lately, and this quote is helping to set me free. This is a funny thought: I want exactly what I have in my life right now. You want what you have. If you wanted something else, you would have something else. So do it. Go get what you want. Get rid of what you don't want, and begin to realize that you attract in your life what you do want. Be strong, and go for it. Take the chance. Dare to be different. You will find yourself a stronger person afterwards, regardless of the results. You have my support, and know that love is always there to guide you.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Blessed is this life


I was blessed with this life. My parents both stepped outside of the box to be together; they both had to leave their family systems an defy societal opinion to be together. They didn't care. They just did it, because they loved each other, and they wanted kids. The tangible result: my sister and me. Born in California, raised across the U.S., and given a very worldly perspective, I am now a woman with my own viewpoints, capable of taking on anything that comes my way, with the courage, help, and optimistic view of life that my parents had. Blessed is this life. I have been provided for- from food, to a college education, to a home, and above all, to love. I have received so much love and light that I can now distribute to others. I was given the strength, courage and wisdom to be my own person, to do whatever I want in this world, with positive morals. I live in the Bay Area, one of the most thriving economies in the world, where my basic needs are easily met with hard work and devotion. I am always able to choose, and if I choose wrong, I can forgive myself, and choose again. I have so much opportunity to have an enjoyable life, to smile everyday, to be compassionate towards myself and others. Blessed is this life of opportunity. Blessed is this life of good choices. Blessed is the ability to forgive, and to choose more wisely and consciously next time.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Ahhhhhhhhh *SIGH*

Trying, trying, trying. I've been trying so hard to make something work that is just NOT working. I didn't even realize it until a friend pointed it out to me. Sometimes, we need friends to give us a little help. I've been talking about accepting flow and allowing one thing to lead to another without forcing my life to happen, and it's about time I actually start practicing it. I even thought I was! Now, I see more clearly, and I am more happy, and feel more free than ever. I like freedom. It's really important to me. What a relief. Life is exactly where it is supposed to be.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

The Universe


"The moment you make a commitment, the universe aspires to assist you." -Goethe.

There is something to be said about this quote. Although sometimes life may seem hard, if we accept it willingly, and allow it to happen without becoming too involved, that "hardship" just sort of dissipates. Whether we make commitments to relieve ourselves of old habits, or to move forward in our careers, or change our thoughts, or exercise daily, observe yourself and the actions around you that help to allow things to fall into place. It is all a part of the earth's cycle, the universe's plan, the dual relationships in the world, and the perfection that exists inside and around us.

Recently, I have had a really rough readjustment phase back into California lifestyle after traveling for 5 months. My friends are different now, the clothes I wear are different, my hobbies have changed, my perspective on life is new, the way I view myself and my future have completed changed, and the way I treat myself and others is different. I've had a difficult time, questioning myself, my culture, my values, norms, beliefs, attitudes, and even the way I interact with my friends, family, and people I do not know. This difficult time is evolving into a beautiful formation of love for myself, for life, and my eagerness to be who I want to be without the pressures of society or the world on my shoulders. I had to go through that rough patch in order to get where I am. This is perfection. No matter where we are in our lives, we are perfect, and it will pass. The moment I made my commitment to get back on my feet, step by step, little by little, the universe is falling into place, exactly as it already was and always should be.

Allowing flow and love and light,

Jen